I Was Here By Gayle Forman

I received this galley in consideration for an honest review.

I Was Here By Gayle FormanI Was Here by Gayle Forman
Published by Penguin on January 27, 2015
Genres: Young Adult

When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, who broke Meg’s heart. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question.


When I peeked at other people’s reactions to I Was Here I kept seeing remarks abut how dark it was.  The story, which centers on Cody’s emotional journey after her friend’s suicide, is quite dark.  Meg was the friend that got out.  While Cody stayed in the small Washington town after high school, Meg went away to college and seemed to live the life that Cody longed for but couldn’t quite reach.  With Meg’s death, Cody is forced to relive their estrangement, her feelings of jealousy, and her guilt.  Guilt is mainly what drives Cody to start digging into Meg’s life when she starts to hear about a person that doesn’t mesh with the Meg she knew.  The story then brings in aspects of a mystery/thriller which somehow worked without sacrificing the core feeling of the story, which was about coming to terms with grief.   Of course, no journey wouldn’t really be a journey if the main character didn’t learn something about herself, and I did see growth in Cody’s character and she was also given a chance to see the people in her life a little differently.  I was especially fascinated by her relationship with her mother, which begins as something to be pitied, but changes into one of more understanding by the end of the book

The question of the hidden files on Meg’s computer provide the motivation of much of the conflict in the story.  As a mystery, it worked well in keeping the momentum of the book going.  It also provided much of the darkness.  There is a romance, as mentioned in the jacket copy, and while I didn’t find it distracting, the story would have been ok without it, as well.  So, in that respect, it’s a bit of a departure for this author.   Ben was much more than the “boy with a guitar” and I was glad that he did not turn into a two-dimensional stereotype.   Another aspect of the story telling that really worked for me was that we only know Meg through the memories of others.  Her suicide takes place before the beginning of the book, and I think it did a lot for the book to force the reader to see and feel everything that Cody is seeing and feeling.  We are as in the dark as she is, and it made me feel more invested in getting the answers.  Of course, with suicide, there often aren’t cut and dry answers or easy explanations.  Cody’s search for truth leads her to as much of an answer as anyone can get in a situation like this, but is isn’t necessarily the one she was expecting.  This is one of those books that might not work for everyone.  If you are married to Gayle Forman’s more romance centered writing, this book might be a little harder for you.  It really spoke to me and the darkness of the story, I felt, was well done and entirely appropriate for the subject matter.  I Was Here doesn’t turn away from the pain of suicide, but neither does it over-sensationalize it.  I thought it struck a good balance and it was a story that was on my mind long after I finished reading it.



About Gayle Forman

Gayle Forman is an award-winning author and journalist whose articles have appeared in such publications as Jane, Seventeen, Glamour, Elle, and The New York Times Magazine, to name just a few. She lives in New York City with her husband and daughter.


11 responses to “I Was Here By Gayle Forman

  1. A wonderful review. Suicide is such a serious issue, and authors can often completely mangle it. Really looking forward to Gayle’s new work.

  2. Honestly, at this point, I’m trust Gayle to write/tell a story that will feel real and raw. This is especially because it is about something that’s so serious and so difficult – a friend’s suicide. Glad you liked this one, and looking forward to reading it myself!

  3. I hate to admit this but I have yet to read a Gayle Forman book. I have a bunch but have not gotten to any of them yet, and with how many people love these books I really feel like I need to get on this. This sounds like such a dark book but with such an amazing story attached to it. I truly can’t wait.

  4. It sounds like an intense read with not so easy topic. I heard a lot about the author but I haven’t read any of the books. I should. thanks for your review!

  5. If anyone could write a book like this with this subject matter and do it well, it’s Gayle Forman definitely! I’m totally okay with limited romance because for me, my favourite part of Gayle’s writing is the journey and the rawness. Excellent review 🙂

  6. I haven’t read anything of Gayle Forman’s yet, but I got an ARC of this one– sounds like it’s got a lot of depth to it! Glad that it spoke to you, and I’m looking forward to picking this one up soon. Great review!

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